Saturday, November 17, 2012

A WORD OF CAUTION TO ALL HEART PATIENTS OUT THERE

These past few days, I did something stupid. By doing that, I scared my family half to death. Now I feel guilty, I even go out of my way to take care of my mom myself, like she's been doing it always, but especially in the last few days, when she was so scared and she couldn't even eat because of that. 


So in short, this is what happened: as some of my friends know, I am a heart patient. I had two surgeries, one of them was open heart. Being a heart patient, I must follow a certain lifestyle and a low sodium diet. Sodium was the culprit for my state these days, or I should say I was to blame, not the sodium itself. 

So: If I eat salt, liquid builds up inside my abdomen. around my organs & especially my liver. The liver can also become enlarged; this means I get what doctors call ascites, a symptom liver patients get. It's not pleasant, at all!!

I got overzealous and eliminated all sodium in my diet: no salt food, no salt bread. I want to make myself clear: no salt  AT ALL!! Now a good doctor will tell you the human body needs sodium to function. We simply CANNOT eliminate all salt in our diet, we will upset a very delicate and important balance in our bodies. The medical term is electrolyte balance. Upsetting this balance can lead to various situations. One of them is hyponatremia, meaning a too low level of sodium in the human body. Symptoms of hyponatremia include nausea and vomiting, headache, confusion, lethargy, fatigue, appetite loss, restlessness and irritability, muscle weakness, spasms, or cramps, seizures, and decreased consciousness or coma. 

I had various of the symptoms. Except for seizures and the following ones, thank God! I had a deviant behaviour, I'm even ashamed to confess some of it. This got my mom really scared, along with my sister. I ended up in the ER, obviously. They took me to a psychiatrist, that stupid doc didn't even look at me. He said I was under the influence of drugs, that I was high. Idiot! Another one scratched the soles of my feet with a needle. Needless and ouchy. Infectious diseases specialist, duh! Then I was taken to the ICU, there they finally learned I had hyponatremia. They had me under iv with saline solution and sedated. When I was a little better, I was sent inside the Arges County Hospital, Here an internist took my case. I would really like to thank her: She is Violeta Marinescu MD. She is the one who brought me back from madness Ha-ha! So thank you, Doc!

So the lesson for me, and my word of caution for all people following a low sodium diet out there, is this: DO NOT eliminate all sodium from your diet!! Don't be stupid like me, you can endanger your sanity, your health, and eventually your life!!!

Monday, June 25, 2012

Moon Envy

           



             She was immensely jealous of her sister. Her sibling was stunning; her sheer blue skin, her billions of buzzing children. Next to her, she was barren, cold and ugly.

She watched them fascinated, always, until they came to her. She was happy but...

what are they doing? No! They’re hurting her, poking, drilling into her flesh. She endured the pain, imagining how it must feel for her big sis to be poked and drained constantly, in the deafening noise of billions of voices and foot steps. It was crushing, and she starts to feel the anger swelling inside her till she cries out, bursting violently with the same power she used to have when she was a young, burning child. She threw them all into the void, punishing them for their insolence!

And she cried for her sister...




Wednesday, May 9, 2012

TEN






Too kind
How unforgivenly fair!

Two soft, noble beats
So stunningly vivid, brilliantly intense
Bearing the relentless
Burden of ages, of loss
Of change.

Love thy weakness 
for human nature
Holding...

Holding in TIME!




Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Night Time

What is it that attracts me to you?
When night time comes
With creeping sounds and velvet winds,
I wait in the shadows
And crave for nutmeg flavors.
Cannot resist thy lavishness
Cannot deter my desire
Pulling like a magnet
Overwhelming, perilous, you!